How much tears it takes to fake just one stupid smile infront of your family.
Who knows how much hatred and sadness they have inside their heart.
Hate them for their unfairness.
Hate them for not giving you the care you wish.
Hate them for pretending you weren’t there all the time.
Hate them for judging how you do and look.
Sad that they have to hide all those feelings away.
Sad that they have to take it all into their heart.
Sad that they might not have any place in the family.
Sad that it happens again and again.
If there were a meter gauge for the sad and hate,
The meter should have been near the limit of bursting.
If the heart was smooth and perfect shape from the beginning,
right now there should have uncountable knifes stab into it.
Who can smiles truthfully with a heart so torn.
The heart had been defending against more stabbing for long time,
that it no longer detect incoming of “care and love”,
‘cos it had forgotten how they feels like…
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